Life Update | I'm Finally Happy
I wanted to jump on here quick and do an update. I’ve definitely withdrawn from blogging and especially sharing about my life on here! However, of late, I’ve become so burnt out with social media, mainly Instagram and Facebook, that I’ve basically resigned to giving up which brings me as always back to my blog. And more recently vlogging.
First and foremost I fell in love with blogging years ago when I was trying to dye my hair at home. I found Anna Saccone’s post, stalked her ;), and eventually became obsessed with her and Zoella. I quickly started my own blog and fell in and out of love with it for years. I’ve noticed that social media has become a major burden on my life basically because no one is seeing my content and because it’s a lot of work. With blogging I always felt happy and inspired but with Instagram I feel quite the opposite. There are so many amazing people out there that I feel like I can’t even move. What’s more is that a lot of these so called photographers stage photos and have professional photographers take their photos. I personally got to the point where it didn’t matter what I was doing - all I thought about was doing things to take a good photo and I was disappointed when I had a fun day but no Instagramable photo to share. So I’ve decided to do a social media cleanse and get back into blogging.
One of the rules of the cleanse is that I am allowed to blog and vlog - follow me on YouTube HERE. I’ve challenged myself to make a video a week and I find it quite rewarding, more so than photography. If you are curious I’ve post TWO weekly vlogs - check them out below!
One to the life update. I’ve moved to Billings, Montana and started a new job that I absolutely LOVE. I am renting an apartment prior to buying a home so I can spend the next year exploring - That way I will know where and what I want when I go to buy. Because of this, and my desire to be cheap/save money, I’ve been buying a lot of my furniture at estate sales and used furniture stores. I decorated my apartment cheaply but I still love how good it looks. I find it very rewarding to build things and use power tools ;) and I plan on making more home decor and possibly selling it. I love blogging, videography, writing, and photography but if I want to make money off my side hustle I need to find another way.
I’ve been reconnecting with my friends that live here in Billings and enjoying their company. My friend Amber and I watched a few football games, worked on home decor, and went to garage sales. My friend Anna and I planned but missed brunch but made up for it with pizza and an amazing climbing movie - The Dawn Wall.
I’ve been working a lot on what I want out of life. One thing I’ve realized is that my dream to be married, have a house, or even be starting a family by 30 it out the window. I need to grieve the loss of that dream and find a new dream, a new goal. I’ve been continuing with my vegetarianism and I’ve been working out quite a bit. I’ve been talking to friends and working through some issues I had with my past. I actually saw someone and talked to them about my life and fears. It was extremely helpful and reassuring. However when I was in Reno I was so excited to explore and forced myself out, definitely how I got the job writing for This is Reno. Here in Billings I don’t have as much of a desire to solo-adventure, at least not in the city. Like I said I really need to sit down and look at my life and discover what is important to me. I did, however, join a young professional group and I am excited to see where that takes me.
Although I still feel a little lost, what are my goals?, what am I working for?, I am in love with Montana and my job. I love my little townhouse rental and I am excited for the future. After all that I have been through I think this is next step is going to be one of my best. The future is bright!