Random Sunday Post

Just a few pictures from my past couple of weeks! Don't forget to check out my {Instagram} for more!

One of my FAVORITE things to do during my lunch breaks is read. I love reading. It breaks up the hustle and bustle of work and takes me to another place, another time. Right now I am reading the second book of the Divergent Series, Insurgent. Some days I wear scrubs to work, some days I dress up. Here I am wearing my {Clark shoes}, {American Eagle jeggings}, and a shirt and blazer from I don't know where! I'm sorry. I've had them for so long I forgot where they came from.

As a lot of you know, I suffer from anxiety. Late onset; been dealing for 2 years ;) Haha Anyways, I really, really hate the strategies available to deal with it. I lot of the mediation, breathing, etc. doesn't work for me, at least not long term. I feel okay for a moment, but then my brain turns back on. Currently, I feel like my options are drink (not good), take a benzo (not good), or workout! I was on medication for a year and that really helped but I got off about a year ago and I've been trying to deal with it on my own. It's not that the medication didn't work and I not anti-medication, it's that I had a hard time getting off it. I had really bad "brain zaps" and if you don't know, it's miserable. But anxiety is miserable too! Man I survived 18 months of my ex in boot camp, infantry school, IRAQ, but yet pharmacy school did me in, per say! Ha Anyways, I've been trying really, really hard to deal with it non-medically, mainly because I was okay once I got off meds but I had a relapse and can't seem to get over that hump again. Some days, I don't even notice, other days, it's a battle. And it's utterly annoying because half the time I'm not anxious about anything, at least not that I conscientiously know about. Anyways, short story LONG, I've been trying and failing at incorporating exercise into my life. Right now, I mainly exercise when I'm anxious at night. But I need to start doing it daily! It really can prevent and help keep anxiety at bay. Looking at it, I don't know why I'm so hesitant to fight it. I think I may, even after 2 years, still be in denial that I have it. It's quite bothersome because I really do love being stressed, having a million things going on... I used to thrive off ciaos and now it's my chains. Anyways, again, I bought the new {Nike Free} shoes and I love them. No work out is complete without my {Vim & Vigr} compression socks! I promise to start making daily workouts part of my routine!

This is a random comparison of my hair, I think 6-ish weeks apart. My hair grows like a weed and I've finally decided to grow it out. Growing it out, may entail some extension because I hate it at medium length. Also I am going to see a dermatologist for my skin. My acne, at this age, is crazy out of control and I want to get an anti-aging cream (or 3!) on board. I need to start taking better care of myself, both instead and out!

This if the view from the 9th floor of the hospital. Hello Boise. It was really (ish) smoky a couple weeks ago so I snapped a few panoramic pictures for my grandma.

Last pic! I went on the most amazing pseudo-date last week. One of the 2nd year residents asked me to a play! I had sooooo much fun. He bought a picnic dinner (chicken, humus, bread, wine, mostly what I would have brought on a date too) and we sat, drank, talked about anything and everything... I had sooo much fun. It was so amazing :) We went to King Lear, Shakespeare, so we each admitted to getting about 50% of the play, but no matter. Two weeks ago, I went out like 3 nights in row. I really pushed myself and had a blast. It was so fun to go on a date, that sorta was just two friends hanging out! We also went to drug dinner this last week and man, again, did I have a blast! I was a happy girl there for a while, and I am still (plus or minus a little anxiety)!